2023-06-13: self shock

yesterday i shaved my beard off, the one i'd started growing at the start of the pandemic. and wow is it strange to see a new version of myself after literal years.

my beard is greying. it started that in my late 20s, and it's been a gradual process. and strangely, despite the grey, it actually makes me feel younger? something about fewer lines on my face. making me look somewhere past my twenties, rather than, well, you know.

my partner spent all evening just looking over and shaking her head. who're you. we discussed it later. her favourite stage being when my beard is neat, close-cropped.

i didn't shave today. today we start again.