2023-08-01: jumpy

someone follows me on social media today; the first name stops me, as it always does, regardless of context; i check the website, anything i can find, make sure it isn't actually, you know, them. as if they would be so lazy. as if they would use their real name.

and what would i do if it was them, anyway? mute? block? bury this computer in the backyard, walk away, and never come back?

it has been decades and the spectre of the person who hurt me so badly so long ago still haunts me. the uncommonness of that name held against me like a knife.