2023-09-22: a hard anniversary

today the anniversary of a friend's death. an auto accident. i remember my partner getting the call, then telling me very slowly, very quietly.

he was a big man with a huge heart, self-deprecating, called himself pretty smart for a dumb guy but that wasn't true, he wasn't dumb at all. he always worked hard jobs and was often hurting, but was surrounded by people who loved him, and who he loved even more. he would do anything for you.

the loss is no longer new, but it's still strange. it always will be.

we miss you.