2024-06-23: gone

in the group chat: a short message: the oldest child of a hazy acquaintance from decades ago dead by suicide. the acquaintance not someone i knew well, just the sort of person you knew of at that particular point in time. strong-willed, uncompromising, and whether viewed admiringly or disparagingly, the undisputed queen of our tiny, once-was scene.

but a shock; a terrible loss. just a name to me now, knowing nothing of her life since then, her family, her circumstances. all of those changed forever. devastating to lose a child. & no comfort that nameless people long forgotten know, and grieve as well, & send their love.

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