2024-11-17: dreams

a couple of weeks ago i joked on social media that i didn't dream often, but i never dreamed of my exes, and that's a trade i'd always take.

whoops. last night i dreamed of someone from twenty-four summers ago, who ghosted me years before that word was even coined. i come down into the basement at my childhood house. they're there, sitting on the old, tweedy couch. i say, i'm finally willing to talk to you.

i wake up, upset. these are old wounds and they're closed, but an old wound is still a wound. after i found out what went on, i promised myself i'd never reach out again, and i never have.

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