and today is a spa day. we'd thought about going to an actual spa, but then decided to do it at home. got a massage gun, bought a couple of face masks from the drug store. bought lemons and cucumber to make fancy spa drinking water. we're going to have hot showers and sit in a cold tub and do massages and drink fancy water and diet pepsi.
gotta do something, right? everything else feels bad right now. i don't mind saying my anxiety has been spiralling, and i've been looking forward to this ever since we told ourselves we'd do it. i spent the morning shovelling snow. my back's wrecked, i threw it out last week, and the shovelling has tightened it up again like crazy. but the rest of the day is ours. relax. do spa stuff. cuddle the dogs. and try to put everything else out of mind.