2025-09-03: that didn't help

today's meeting just confirmed what we had been told in the earlier email: big cuts are coming. some of us will know in a week. there may be more cuts after that.

at this point i can't do much more than worry and wait, so i'm doing both. got home from the office and was happy to see my older dog hadn't peed on the floor. sent a few emails, investigated an issue, logged off and had a beer. a tallboy of red ale as the dogs ran around the yard.

i'm tired and my body hurts and i'm feeling my age. missing when i was young & dumb & could sleep off anything. feeling not just old & older, but vulnerable. i mean, most things are always out of our control. but i feel it now.

tomorrow i wfh and before work starts i'm going to lay down a shitty ambient track. do some writing over my lunch break. most things are out of my control. but some things are, and nothing good comes without work.

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