2025-10-23: notes (various)

last year i wrote about a dream and a meadow and for reasons i can't pin down, i've been thinking about it lately. just the dream, not the person; she's been out of my life for almost 25 years and we grew apart in some pretty fundamental ways. but the dream — the idea of it and the colours, they've been coming back. (why?)
been dreaming as well about white sand, turquoise water. green & more green. not this year, probably not next year. maybe the year after?
the small ensemble i normally play with is playing a set later this week wwith two of my arrangements. i'm very proud of this: i wish i could've played with them (i'm out of town for a few days, and they wanted to play the gig, so found a replacement), but i'm so happy that two of my pieces made the cut. it makes me feel like a real composer and arranger.
a couple of weeks ago, i bought an album an old friend made via bandcamp. we chatted a bit on fb messenger afterward. he asked me what i'd been up to (musically) as well. told him what i was starting out on. promised to send him something once it was halfway ready, and i intend to hold myself to that.
(i should probably take note that most of the happiest interactions i've had online in the last decades have been private chats or group chats with old friends; if you feel like you should reach out to an old friend, you absolutely should)