2026-04-12: some stabilization

been in contact with my dad; my mum's doing better. well. sort of. she needed surgery and got it and is having a Bad Time of it right now. but she's on the road to recovery, even if she can't do anything for herself right now.

my aunt's with my grandmother. my grandmother's doing okay, too. my close friend who was in the ER is now out, and doing a little better. my dog is more himself. the vet says we can (very slowly, very gradually) start to take him for walks again.

yesterday i had band practice and things are on track for our next concert, but just locking in with my section, the six of us making a wall of glorious sound — it was good. i needed that.

i haven't had a drink for over a month. at some point i'd imagine i'll have one again. but seeing one friend's health exacerbated by alcoholism, seeing an old acquaintance kill herself with booze; let's just say the luster's worn off.

yesterday before band practice i stopped by the music store, picked up a carbon copy pedal. spent half an hour in the evening fiddling with it, figuring out where it would launch into self-oscillation, how to make it sound slapback, how to do longer delays, or even something like reverb. i'm very impressed. i like it a lot.

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